the artist's first memory his mother sitting in his father's desk chair, crying. he remembers them kissing on the mouth, in the kitchen, while he sat on the floor and toyed with an electronic CASIO keyboard. his father would leave for small periods of time and then return. eventually, the artist was stuffed into a car with his mother, while the police surrounded a mobile home, and he stopped seeing his father. his father would email him vitriolic outbursts aimed at his mother, and his mother would retort. his parents fought through him, his body and mind a transformed into a sort of unmanned drone that both sides were attempting to hijack through language in order to wound each other. the artist retreated into the alluring safety of a simulated world, on his computer. there, he constructed networks of meaning and connection made up of real people, fictional characters, 3D spaces, and other users. he could have stayed there forever, but then shortly after graduating highschool, the artist's house burned down in a wildfire caused by the negligence of a large gas and electric company. everything he had owned up until he was eighteen was now gone. white ash in the forest. he visited the site after the fire burned itself out, and saw the charred metal remains of his custom built gaming pc, still standing in the middle of the property, where his room was. he later considered that, had the disaster never occurred, he would likely have remained living with his mother forever, in his room, in a digital world. but since it had occurred, he was forced to enter the real world, become employed, and interact with real people and develop in-person relationships. he recieved a small sum of money from the accident.
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drawing from these experiences, the artist devised a new poetic method wherein the phrase "from the accident" can be added to the end of to popular rap lyrics. it successfully made him and his friend laugh in bed together for thirty minutes. the project explores possible syntheses of trauma, humor, and pop culture.